That's Midge to You

Icy Pops

2009-06-04T00:25:00.002-04:00

I love them. They are ridiculously good. They are my crack right now.

I am tired, yet I shouldn't be. In approx a week I will be journeying.
Chitown driving.

Semi excited, but kind of wondering, do I even have enough music on my ipod to keep me busy?

I need my comp. I need my dresses for all the events. It's going to be strange to see her graduate. I'm so old.

Speaking of old, is everyone from my grammar school married? Seems like it.

Le blarg.

Unemployment. Month 4

2009-05-29T01:02:00.003-04:00

I went to a huge Collegiate Career Fair and learned a valuable thing.

Be prepared to wait in line as if you're in line at 3:00pm without fastpass on a hot August day for Splash Mountain at WDW.

What a nightmare!!! You are not only competing with young entry levels at these fairs, you're in competition with everyone. It's like competing in a high school swim meet with Olympic athletes, hoping you'll sneak past everyone and take the bronze.

I came in with 30 copies of my resume and other works of Midge, and left with 24....

I don't want to say it was futile, but it sure felt that way as I drowned myself in my own lactic acid from my personal training session, and then drowned my liver in dos equis. Now I'm home with my perma position on my comfy couch watching Fashion Show and The Ring- flipping.

30,000 people applied to be public school teachers in NY, 700 got in. Then they called for a hiring freeze. What can people do in this? What can I do in this? This is CRAZY. Absolutely crazy. The magnitude of this recession is beyond my grasp, and my unemployment has been chipping at my life.

Can someone please give me a job? (that's more than my unemployment?)

Career Fairs

2009-05-28T03:00:00.001-04:00

I want to blog on tumblr. Idk it seems cool. I don't want to desert blogger though.
I have a Career Fair tomorrow, it's actually a big one. I remember seeing it advertised in February thinking to myself "Oh I'll have a job by then..."
Yeah..

I think I want an ice pop, then I'll head to bed.

Wish me luck!

Unemployed... 2 months.. 1 day in

2009-04-10T03:35:00.004-04:00

I just realized that May 8th.. is my birthday... and the 3 month anniversary of being laid off.
Blurg.

I've applied to over 100 jobs. You should see my spreadsheet, it's insane.

I spent 3 hours at Michael's today ...looking at what I could do.
I bought a lollipop mold kit, and made chocolate easter themed lollipops. I also bought non-pareils to put on the cupcakes I'm making also. Creativity.

I cleaned my entire apartment, as usual, I do a super clean once a week.

I have an interview next Wednesday. I'm excited for it. But I'm not excited about the 1.5 hour commute there. Le sigh.

Hopefully things will look up.

Updates.. doozies

2009-03-26T04:10:00.004-04:00

I got laid off on February 8th.
My mother had her surgery February 6th.
She's fine now.
I'm struggling with unemployment, and all the fears, anger, anxiety, and just complete sense of loss that it brings; in addition to being reclusive due to lack of funds.

I don't feel like myself. I've applied to over 50+ positions. Nothing.
My resumes been professionally reviewed. In the mean time, I'm... here

...

2009-02-05T09:31:00.002-05:00

beyond stressed.
need to finish homework.
need to pay off amex in days
just got told major layoffs will happen soon
monday is my fam member's serious operation

i'm going to be dreadfully sick
i'm flipping out right now

what the hell am I going to do ?

Best and Worst Addictions

2009-02-03T09:56:00.004-05:00

And by addictions naturally, I mean television... for now. Now two categories. Keep in mind I have watched all these shows. Best is best depicted, relevance to my life, self interests.,etc... Worst is irrelevant to me, unrealistic, or stuff I would like to pretend is unrealistic.

Best Addictions:

Gossip Girl
I just finished last night's episode of Gossip Girl and WOW, it has made me want to hurt cute, little animals- k maybe not, but it has made me want to punch bitches. It preys on the instinct that a girl has when she wants to trust a situation that doesn't seem right, and gets crapped on in the end. I feel that many girls, and guys, can relate to this feeling or experience. Well, the episode deals with that, and the complications of adding high school drama, teachers, and college admissions into the mix. I think it's such a great show, except for the thousand dollar bags. I usually catch it online.

How I Met Your Mother
It's legendary. My favorite episodes are the ones involving Robin's Teen Pop Star Hits, and the "Woo Girl", and "Naked Man." It's a group of friends that I could see myself having. It's people you can relate to, hanging out grabbing beers at the bar. Dating, relating, couples, singles, it's all encompassing.

30 Rock
Liz Lemon is my humor twin. It's funny. And not conventionally funny, it's dryly funny and borderline offensive. I love that. I can't describe much about it except it takes place at 30 Rockefeller Center -duh- and the cast is awesome. I love Rachel Dratch's cameos also.. Elizabeth Taylor, the lesbian, the cat lady.. LOVE it! hahaha.

Battlestar Galactica
Though it's becoming more of a complicated soap opera, I love the first season the absolute best. It's like Star Trek with sex. Yeah, I just said that. It combines a war with humans and cylons (humans with robotic tendencies), and drama and betrayal that goes with it. I guess it truly is a soap opera in a space setting, but hey, that makes it much cooler, plus the eye candy is a plus.

Skins
Online view only. The most dramatic, over the top show I think I have ever seen. I hope the youth abroad isn't like this really. Compulsive use of alcohol, drugs, and sex reign this show. You look at a group of teens lives. The entertainment factor of this show is amazing. I love comparison of their low income areas to the US areas of low income. As far as appearance is concerned, they win. It's also bizarre to see them all drinking so young at bars, as the drinking age is younger. Like I've said prior, I don't know if this is accurate, nor do I care. I have lived my "rebellious teen angst" regret through this show.

Fringe
I love mixing science and FBI, ultimately it's my jobgasm. I love Joshua Jackson, and I would die for Olivia's job. Best episode ever with the people on the bus and airplane suspended in that goo, it really peaked my interest, and the show's been nothing but awesome since. I mean I used to think of stuff like this when I was younger,- I was a sick little daydreamer- and it's cool to see mutated, walking common cold viruses on the show. :-D

House
The medical drama in my life- I abandoned ER prior to college. I actually find him funny. I find dry sarcasm funny, and I find it funnier since I didn't actually start watching this show until this season. I also like the cast, and that they kill people off and fire them. I don't know, I also like the whole "let me quiz myself to see if I know what these symptoms cause." I have gotten a lot, though ofcourse, the person usually has a combination of 3+ diseases because.. one diagnosis is not enough to keep watching.

Worst Addictions:

Secret Life of an American Teenager
Getting pregnant at 15 because you didn't realize you were having sex. Getting married at 15 to a guy whose baby you're not having. Having a 13 year old sister who owns condoms. Poor middle class suburbia with its struggles. Having friends who are all polar opposites and stereotypical. Thanks for making the Hispanic girl the "slutty one" from the broken home. LOL The Jesus worshipping blonde girl from a loving family. The follower friends. All the stereotypes are present here, the "Hot guy" aka Player who was abused as a child and that's why he sleeps around, the Nerd who loves the preggers girl, the Jock who wants some, the random forced interracial couple we barely see, and the Asians- who break up and branch out. I find the subject matter as equally offensive as the characters. Don't get me wrong, the openness about sex is the only positive thing I can comment on. I was open with my parents about sex when I was younger, but this is slightly ridiculous. I simply watch this show just to see what happens next. I 'm actually in complete shock it's getting relevancy comments and positive reviews.

The Bachelor
Oh boy, so not real and humiliating. I watched a bit of it last night and I can't imagine a dude breaking it off with me on national television, that doesn't even happen to celebs. But people watch for that kind of crap and love it. in fact, I think the girl who got kicked off last night will probably have her own show next season ,watch for it. I definitely loved Momma's Boys though.

Rock of Love Tour Bus
The raunchiness sucks me in every time. Most of those girls are idiots with boobs-which is unfortunately what a lot of men go for. Stay away from this type of dude. LOL I also watch for cameos of girls from previous seasons like Lacey in the ice skating/baby challenge thingamabob. I do have to gripe. Thanks to this show, in addition to all the TRUE fans of Poison - including middle aged women, bikers, metalheads alike - we have to now see these random skanks in Ed Hardy dresses and heels at a show trying to get discovered and getting shitty.

Lost
I tried . Pretty damn hard too. I couldn't do it. Sorry life.

Heroes
Once again, once again, a religious cult show. It looks cool, just can't get into it. I was really into it at the beginning, but then life got chaotic, and I got lost. Maybe one day.

Grey's
I like House better, and I'm only allowed one medical drama a season. Plus, the first episode of the season depressed me, I hate shows that emphasize betrayals and whatnot. Yes, I know it happens, but I watch television to not see people on their deathbeds admitting adultery.

I miss simple shows like Full House, Saved By The Bell (the original!!! F the college years) and Laguna Beach :-(
"jessicaaa"

Oh yeah, Happy Birthday Hun!!!
Today and until May, Joe and I are 25.. at the same time. So joyous!!!

It's 4am and I'm still up.

2009-02-01T03:52:00.003-05:00

Joe and his sleep schedule.
We went to the Tinton Falls Outlet Stores today.. I actually bought stuff at - get this- J. Crew! :-D $23.00 for a sweater and a black shirt I can wear to work or play.

Anyway, my friend's little brother posted this on Facebook. I found it useful.

5 Ways You Are Sabotaging Your Relationship

By Hannah Geller

1. BODY INSECURITIES

You know you have this problem if...
You cringe and cover up when your partner sees you naked.
Compliments make you nervous and defensive.
Thinking about his positive attributes makes you wonder what he's doing with you.

Why is it a problem?
When we are ashamed of our bodies, we "withdraw sexually" and have trouble "being playful and free," says relationship expert Dr. Alice Pisciotto. Many people resort to substances to deal with their insecurities (for example, drinking in order to have sex), which can ruin a sense of closeness.

How to fix it:
The first step is awareness: realizing, for example, that when he says, "you look beautiful in that dress" and you hear, "go to the gym," it's not because he's being sarcastic, but because you feel ashamed of your body. The second step is to learn to talk about it in an open, honest way. Explain your insecurities to him, why you think you have them, and how they make you feel. Then, pledge to yourself to throw the symptoms of insecurity out the window. Once you stop calling yourself fat, for example, you may stop feeling so fat.

2. BAD TIMING

You know you have this problem if... You bring up sore points — issues you argue about often or recently — at romantic dinners, family functions, or company events. Or, worse yet, you bombard him with accusations the second you're alone.

Why is it a problem?
"This really drives guys crazy," says Pisciotto. Everyone knows that communication is important to a good relationship, but knowing when and where to communicate can be just as important. Bringing up a problem at an inappropriate time or place will almost never solve it, and will become a problem in its own right. And he'll be reluctant to bring you along to his cousin's wedding if he's worried you'll be shooting him dirty looks all night.

How to fix it:
If you want to talk about a problem, give some forewarning, says Pisciotto. "X is really bothering me. Can we talk about it tonight?" Have a safe, private place where you can talk without feeling uncomfortable. And if you really want to resolve the issues, make sure you are talking in person and never by text message or e-mail.

3. SNAPPING

You know you have this problem if...
Your partner complains you're always blowing up at him — whether he forgot to pick up the dry-cleaning or threw out the manuscript for the novel you've secretly been working on.

Why is it a problem?
You may be using these explosions as a substitute for intimacy, says Pisciotto. "If you say, 'I love you,' who knows how he's going to react?" You may get a grunt, you may get a kiss, you may get some bad news. "But if you scream at him, you know he's going to scream back." Excessive anger may be a sign that you're insecure about his feelings for you. Snapping at him allows you to control his behavior because his response — anger — is predictable. But if he feels like he's always about to step on a land mine, you may be doing the very opposite: driving him away.

How to fix it:
"This is really an issue of self-awareness," says Pisciotto. The next time you feel mad at him, ask yourself if your anger is proportionate to the offense. If not, think about why you feel so furious: Are you mad about something else that you haven't talked about sufficiently? Does his anger reassure you of his feelings (i.e., "if he's screaming at the top of his lungs, he must be passionate about me")? Are you insecure about his feelings because of something he has done, or because of something unrelated that happened to you in the past? Instead of blowing up at him, try to calmly and insightfully tell him why you are feeling so enraged. Use "I" sentences instead of "you" sentences: "I felt angry when you didn't call, because it made me feel like you don't care about me," rather than, "You didn't call me! You don't care about me!"

4. KEEPING SCORE

You know you have this problem if...
You're keeping a tally of the gives and the takes.
You say things like, "Yes, we hung out with my friends tonight but I hung out with his friends for the last five days."

Why is it a problem?
"Keeping score is usually a sign you don't feel understood, that you don't feel heard," explains Pisciotto. You feel that your partner doesn't realize or appreciate the contributions and sacrifices you make for the relationship. "This becomes the 'yes, but' of the relationship," says Dr. Pisciotto. "Yes, you took me out to dinner tonight, but I paid the last six nights. Yes, you initiated sex tonight, but I always initiate. Yes, you care about me, but I care about you more."

How to fix it:
When you catch yourself thinking or saying, "Yes, but..." step back and ask yourself why. Is this an isolated incident: Are you really the one who always does the dishes, and you just want him to help out more with household chores? Or is it part of a bigger problem: Do you feel like you always make more sacrifices for the relationship, and the dishes are just one example of many? Keeping score provides you with ammo to win the argument "Who's the better partner." It's childish behavior that you should do your best to minimize. Be hypervigilant when your thoughts slip into the "Yes, but..." pattern. Remind yourself that although you may give more in this particular area — you always pay for dinner out — he may give more in another, like always buying the groceries.

5. LETTING THE PAST DICTATE THE PRESENT

You know you have this problem if...
You blame your current boyfriend for problems you had in your last relationship: Your ex had an affair with his personal trainer, so you tell your new boyfriend you like the "chubby look" to keep him out of the gym.

Why is it a problem?
It's a basic truth of psychology that "we often repeat problems in order to solve them," says Pisciotto. For example, when you're suspicious that your new boyfriend is going to cheat on you, like your ex did, your subconscious is trying to come to terms with the old problem. The effect will hardly be productive: You're likely to create some new issues with your current boyfriend without solving the issues from your past.

How to fix it:
Take a moment to ask yourself: Are there any issues or arguments you had with a former boyfriend that still bother you? If so, write them down and be on the lookout. The next time you're angry with your current boyfriend for something similar, ask yourself whether or not he deserves it. If not, Pisciotto recommends telling him about your ex and asking him about his. But be clear that you're talking about your old flame solely for the purpose of improving your current relationship. Your new guy doesn't want to hear about how your ex just got a promotion, what a great cook he was, or how amazing he was in bed.

-All this stuff is the usual relationship killers, lucky for me I don't suffer from many, probably one or two. I know I "keep score" sometimes with stuff we do and don't do- like times he stays over my apartment versus times I stay at his house, but in all honesty, I need to follow that rule and overall, chill. My worries and fears of us not being able to spend nights together stresses me out unnecessarily, especially the alone time aspect. Though, I know if I'm chill and bring it up in a calm manner, it will be responded to much better than if I whine or bitch about it. Meh...

O yeah, I attempted the cake lollipops...they did not come out so great :-/ One almost gave me a sugar coma. I think I would have preferred them more if I didn't use the cream cheese frosting rather than just the cream cheese. Back to the drawing board for his birthday sweet treat stuff, siiigh.. I had great intentions... ideas?

My sister took the MCAT today. Very proud..

K I'm off to bed now.. I swear :-X

@ work on a flex Friday ...

2009-01-30T13:51:00.004-05:00

It's actually not so bad...

I have an amazing idea for Joe for his day of birth/Valentine's day, but my lips are sealed until I can follow through with it. I love being creative :-D When I'm not being lazy. Speaking of lazy, I have NOT been today. I finished the book library at my job, now to get started on the paper/EPA regulations... Oh yeah, I'm NOT traveling for a while. Family time es mas importante.

I finished my homework for my Monday class, and got my materials (graphing tools and calculator lol) ready for my Thursday class, and began my summary of a ship optimization article (1/3). I am enhancing productivity today so I don't feel bad about not doing much this weekend. Honestly, I feel so lazy. I am forcing myself to do work, and to push through this homework. I need to develop a pattern here. I am almost done with my graduate courses.... one year remaining, and this is a huge sigh of relief. On another facet, the question of PhD or MBA takes over as well. I'm unclear on anything. I think that has a lot to do with my laziness. Also, people forcing to make weekend plans at 9am on a Friday make me not want to go out at all :-p I'm such a plan commitment phobe. I hate booking things and then feeling headachey or just lazy later and having to cancel. So I'd rather be "spontaneous" and go out last minute. That's how I roll. And by last minute means, I will telephonically let you know at 10pm :-p

I'm lame I know.

Upcoming: Candace and Vinnie's wedding is 8 days from now. Joe's Birthday is beforehand next week. Then, Valentine's day falls shortly afterwards. Busy.

I get to leave quite soon, so exciting :-D I actually don't know what to do first ... I know I have to go to Michael's and get baking stuff or maybe I'll save that for later. Meh, I'll figure it out.

Pics are fun indeed

2009-01-29T08:29:00.005-05:00

Since this is the SLOWEST. WEEK. EVER.
Pictures are usually more fun than words, and funnier (somewhat).
Anyway, this made me laugh. I found it on digg.com.
This one also make me laugh. I've had visions of doing something like this myself. But who has the time?

And now, I should get my homework done. I have to write about ship design optimization, sketch some stuff, and analyze graphs for my Intro to Ship Bldg course. Analyze an article for my Port Design class. And I want this done by the end of the weekend. If anyone knows how to sketch (not BS sketch, as in design sketch) help would be more than appreciated.

Snow Flex Day :-D

2009-01-28T23:01:00.004-05:00

I took a flex day today, I needed it. I did nothing. I got Pollo Tropical takeout. I also must say that McD's McCafe latte was good! Non-fat milk and sugar-free vanilla syrup!

My sick obsession is OR-Live. I like watching medical procedures, I'm sick I guess. I didn't watch any today. I'm worried about future procedures close family members are receiving very shortly.

Stressors. Balancing work, school, family, boyfriend, and life in general. Specifically work and school and family, actually, my boyfriend nor friends are stressors. Work trips decided on last minute cannot work for me at this time. I'm taking loans out to survive for school tuition, and to hopefully finish my masters degree in a year's time, with thesis. I am also, like I said prior, being there for my family this year. They need me for the first time in a long time. People that I considered untouchable, have become vulnerable and human to me in the past few months. People who I needed growing up now need me, and I cannot and will not turn away.

Anyway, I will state more later once I get everything in order. I know I've been a grumpy, stressed out B the last few days. It has ended though, worrying and stressing and crying changes nothing.

I also need to do my homework :-/

But it's past my bedtime. :-)

Down with my sickness.. literally

2009-01-27T12:27:00.004-05:00

I am sick. I think I'm having a mono symptom stress relapse. I got mono when I was 21 years old during my Christmas break- excellent timing- and did nothing but eat ramen noodles once a day and watch a huge selection of movies and reality television shows. I did nothing, and I loved it. Up until that point, I didn't know what it was like to sit still. Well, now that I work full time, and go to class twice a week, I cannot afford to relapse into this condition. I got into work at 10ish this morning, and at 12:45pm, I already would like to leave. And NO, it is not contagious. I'm actually more contagious for mono when I don't have symptoms. (Go here for info on that you neurotic person). Plus what's making me believe it's this is my LACK OF HUNGER. I am never not hungry.

Oh man it's still not even 1:00pm.

Might be traveling next week... might be.

Wish Upon a Star? ..Sort of.. think closer to earth

2009-01-26T08:41:00.002-05:00

I love this site: WishUponAHero.

Every time you're having a crappy day, go on this site; and help someone.

I have restored faith in humanity.

My predicted blocks for my block superbowl pool..

2009-01-22T11:25:00.001-05:00

No idea if it's good. I know it's all luck.

Operatics

2009-01-20T10:36:00.001-05:00

This has made me quite excited. $25.00 tickets to something I've been dying to do? :-) Cross your fingers.

Classes begin.. free time will dwindle.

2009-01-19T09:44:00.001-05:00

I'm still currently deciding on classes for this semester, and what a great time to do so since the semester started last week, and I have gotten no word from my academic graduate advisor or professor. I should call my professor yet again. I feel so annoying, but I need answers yesterday. I'm pseudo-busy at work today. Very exciting, we're starting to get a bit of work. I'm on week 3 of my couch to 5k marathon... so count that in my 101 in 1001.

Joe and I are back in full force, and I really couldn't be happier. He works nights so our schedules do not exactly match up for most of the week, but I think the space makes us miss each other, and appreciate the time we have together. Though, I am feeling slightly odd and uncomfortable being 25 years old and running around his house in pajamas. Yikes! But hey we always have my apartment, and his fam is cool. I will tell you it is so bizarre to go from being completely solitary in your own apartment to a house filled with people a couple nights a week. I could use the socialization.

On a fat kid note, I bought massive amounts of groceries yesterday, and am going to try a Giada recipe tonight (101 in 1001). I think it's called Eggplant Timballe It's off the cook book she autographed for me back in October- I went to her book signing, it was great! It looks tasty, but can I tell you sometimes I feel like buying all those ingredients is just like ordering takeout, atleast price wise. I know healthwise there is no comparison. It is better if you cook things yourself.

Okay back to work. I think I'm coming on board blogger....

101 in 1001

2009-01-19T09:40:00.000-05:00

101 in 1001

The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.

The Criteria:
Tasks must be specific (ie. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (ie. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past - frequently simple goals such as New Year's resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organising and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Some common goal setting tips:
1. Be decisive. Know exactly what you want, why you want it, and how you plan to achieve it.

2. Stay Focussed. Any goal requires sustained focus from beginning to end. Constantly evaluate your progress.

3. Welcome Failure. Frequently, very little is learned from a venture that did not experience failure in some form. Failure presents the opportunity to learn and makes the success more worthy.

4. Write down your goals. It clarifies your thinking and reinforces your commitment.

5. Keep your goals in sight. Review them frequently, and ensure that they are always at the forefront of your thinking.

My list is as follows:

101 Dalmations:


1	Smile more - so simple and a quick mood changer
2	Nitpick less- certain things don't matter, pick your battles
3	FULLY learn to snowboard- hopefully this will happen soon
4	Run a mile in about 9 minutes- right now I'm at 11… :-(
5	Become more active as a volunteer in non-profit organizations
6	Not kill my plants- don't laugh
7	Spend more time with people who matter
8	Continue my "movies with dad" once every week or two weeks
9	Finish my masters thesis
10	Download album art for all of my music- Itunes is amazing
11	Get my final "tattoo"- lionfish..
12	Read one non-work related or school related book a month
13	Sleep for more than 5 hours a night- I don't sleep right now
14	Become officially CPR certified
15	Obtaining my gun permit- fingerprinting…
16	Learn one more language- Italian or Japanese or Gujurati
17	Always striving for more confidence
18	Limit the road rage- No screaming or throwing things out my window
19	Learn to "no scope" on Halo 3- Srsly
20	Learn to beat the chimp on XBL chess ON MY OWN- aka learn to think like a chess player
21	To be able to defend myself in whatever decisions I make in my life and not feel guilt
22	To surround myself with positive people- No dramz
23	Start to review the movies I've seen- I've seen many
24	Buy "sexy heels"- Manolo's? Ch-yeahhh ….
25	Replace my mattress pad- with one that wasn't $35 and kills my back.
26	Continue to donate my old clothing to those less fortunate
27	Become a better trivia game player - aka stop watching reality shows and pay attention to Jeopardy
28	Try recipes from my Giada DeLaurentis book- bring the book to A&P lol
29	Get to work ON TIME- 6:45am !!!!
30	Call my sister every day- even if she nags
31	Call my mother more than I do now- even if she nags
32	Identify every state and capital- if I could do it when I was 10, I should be able to do it now.
33	Not air out my dirty laundry to anyone who'd listen- it backfires every now and then
34	Floss everytime I brush- I floss when I remember now…
35	Update my journal once a week involving topics that matter- to me
36	Try to like Philadelphia and see more within it
37	Be a better person- better sister, daughter, friend, coworker..
38	Hold the door for people behind me
39	Try new foods whenever possible- bring immodium
40	Go to a Cowboys football game this year - away or local need not matter, though AWAY would be cooler
41	Have more people over my apartment and save some money and friendships
42	Actually go on a hike- yes.. In the woods..
43	Cleaning my apartment once a week- as in vacuuming, dusting, the works..
44	Go horseback riding somewhere awesome- on a beach
45	Take a road trip- Boston, Pittsburgh… possibly have a motive for it
46	Join an indoor pool and start swimming- I miss it terribly
47	Cut out coupons from the paper- maybe I should write buy a paper also..
48	Be a better listener- sometimes people just want you to shut up
49	Be less dependent on social networking sites- facebook and myspace are not life
50	Go to the Bronx zoo- why not
51	Go to a hockey or basketball game with my sister
52	Get over my fear, and give blood this year
53	Find a budgeting program for my blackberry that isn't too expensive
54	Use my crest white strips- brush AND FLOSS 2x a day atleast
55	Go to the park on weekends where I'm bored- to exercise and get air
56	Curse less while playing online video games - or in general?
57	Gain atleast 2000 gamerpoints on xbox live
58	Continue to paint nails/pluck eyebrows- and keep up with being a girl
59	Get another black ikea "leather' chair..
60	Take a vacation - anywhere with my miles!
61	Do something cool and artsy in NY- such as go to the MOMA or go to a broadway play
62	Go to ComiCon or E3 or something along those lines
63	Think before I speak - so simple, yet so overlooked
64	Buy a PS3 solely for LittleBigPlanet
65	Once LittleBigPlanet is bought, dwl the content for MGS
66	Play my DS more than once a month
67	Actually take a vitamin a day- Multivitamins
68	Learn to cook Cuban food- use "the book" - and try it out on my friends
69	Catch up on world news- become more aware of the world outside of my 10 mile radius
70	Finish my online scrapbooking project and actually order a book for my coffee ottoman
71	Complete the couch to 5k project- http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml - and go past that
72	Actually complete a 5k - or run the Arthritis Walk this year
73	Learn Photoshop- past just cutting out and pasting people's faces in funny bodies
74	Make an effort to enjoy more exotic foods- Ethiopian… Indian..
75	Call/Visit/Make an effort with my distant-ish relatives as well as my close relatives
76	Learn to make a souffle- mm chocolate.. Guava..
77	Have a spa day or weekend.
78	Get a pet - once I can prove I can care for plants and guinea pigs are cute
79	Learn to ice skate- well, without using the wall or a person as a crutch or aid
80	Play golf in the springtime- and practice patience hah
81	Build a Gingerbread house- I should've really done this already..
82	Learn to french braid my own hair- mine isn't long enough right now
83	Go to an Opera- I'm surprised on this one, I LOVE OPERA music :-)
84	Buy an official first aid kit- especially for camping
85	To GO camping- as in actually camp in a car or tent, preferrably in a car
86	VISIT THE ONLY SONIC IN NJ…
87	Buy a coloring book, and color it.. YES COLOR IT.
88	Visit Amish country - buy cheese/something natural
89	Practice Sodoku and other mind stimulating games- crossword puzzles
90	Make an effort to use better vocabulary- aka STOP CURSING SO MUCH
91	Use my passport before its renewal in 2010….
92	Decide on PhD Plan- subject, location, etc.
93	Dress more like my age -25 not 12
94	Spend more time at school studying/library/devoting time
95	Download more music- variety- onto my Itunes and Ipod
96	Manage my time between family, boyfriend, friends, school, work, and personal development- use my planner
97	To learn some more tech savvy information- I used to write HTML code in high school, now I barely remember how to insert pictures
98	Minimize road rage, especially when people cut me off on my commute- or throw things out my window
99	Continue eating healthy- using WW as a guide would be great
100	Scan old pictures that aren't ruined by water damage or mold - then make wall art with them
101	To not judge as much as I do now- I could say NOT JUDGE AT ALL..But as human beings, that would be impossible

I will bold them as I complete them or change colors if they're modified.